I have a friend getting married Saturday, and there is SO much I have to get done prior to the wedding. And getting my hair done and such may seem like every day stuff, but it’s kind of important.
I’m going to the wedding to show off, for the first time to anyone other than family, my weight loss thus far. I haven’t lost that much, number wise, but body fat wise there is a noticeable difference. And I usually don’t bother showing myself off. But I, for the first time, feel pretty happy with myself and how the weight loss is going so far. So, it’s kind of a treat to go mingle with friends, see one finally be happy and walk down the aisle, and be there wearing the type of dress that I thought I would never be comfortable to wear before. Before it was long gowns, billowy to hide my body. Never show my legs, never show off my curves, etc.
The dress I have, it is a little big on me in some areas, but because it’s a cute, little dress (kind of like a cocktail dress if I had to guess), and I’m showing off my legs, and letting it show me off in a different way (and I never DREAMED it would have fit me)-it’s important. It’s dipping my toe into the pool of accepting my body and congratulating my work thus far. Even the family here are saying I’m losing my “cheeks” You used to be able to grab and “squish” my cheeks. Now, you’re lucky if you can barely grab them. My face still looks round, but it’s looking a bit ‘thinner’ as well
Saturday is a day where I can just relax. Not be so heavy minded about my IBS, or watching everything I eat (because of the diet AND the IBS), and not feeling like it all weighs me down to where I can’t go out. This week is a chance for me to pamper myself a little, and I haven’t done that in months. The last time I had my hair done, nails done, all that was when daddy died. So in a sense, it’s nice dad can see me all done up again from up above. And hopefully, he’s proud of the hard work I’ve done thus far.
This summer, I’m kicking it up a notch too. Some clients my mom clean for, have agreed that I can come use their pools any time I wish. So my goal is to exercise in a pool, for at least an hour, 3 times a week. I love swimming, and exercising is a lot easier for my body to tolerate if it’s doing something I love. Plus, the pool always kind of took the pressure off my stomach as I exercised (cause when I exercise, certain movements cause my IBS to flare), so you know. Trying to do better here heh.
But yeah, crazy week. I apologize if I’m not here guys. But I promise to let you guys see a picture Sat. :) And thanks to you all for understanding. I know I was gone mostly all last week cause of the kiddo. This week it’s for a friend lawl.